Spotlight: The Secret Girl by Erika Fair

The Lonely Raven Trilogy, Book One

Fantasy / Romance

Date Published: February 11, 2025

Publisher: Clay Bridges Press

Fallon has received premonitions since she was a child—visions that have driven her to steer countless strangers and acquaintances from looming dangers. But these powers have come at a great cost. After enduring heart-wrenching losses during her teenage years, Fallon has lived a solitary life for over a decade, her only anchor being her childhood best friend.

That is, until a series of intense premonitions draws a group of new people into her life, people who start to feel like family. But something deeper is stirring. The raven tattoo on her wrist has begun to tingle, and a raven has started appearing in her visions. Worse still, Fallon is haunted by the memory of someone from her past, someone she loved, and she believes abandoned her—a person to whom the raven seems inexplicably tied.

As the visions grow more urgent, Fallon must decipher their meaning to protect those she cares about. But the question lingers: Is the raven a guide or a harbinger of doom?

In this gripping first installment of “The Lonely Raven Trilogy,” Fallon must face the shadows of her past to safeguard the future of those she loves—and discover whether the raven is an ally or a threat.

Excerpt

CHAPTER ONE

Bret’s heart stopped for one, cold moment. Dread began welling up within him. “Baby, I have to go sort out something,” he told Bergen. “I’m sorry. I’ll call you first thing in the morning, alright? I love you. No more bad dreams.” 

He heard a small, adorable yawn. “’kay, Daddy. Be good. I love you.” And she hung up.

He held his phone and pretended to be looking at it, as if possibly reading a text, giving himself a moment to understand what was happening to him. I’m going crazy, I’m hallucinating, he thought. Someone drugged one of my drinks. He again looked around and again saw nothing.

You’re not hallucinating, the voice assured him. I agree this is 

unusual, but you’ve got to listen to... I’m not listening to you, he replied in his head, unnerved 

that he could do so, until I can see who the hell I’m talking to! Or whatever this is. He glared at his phone, aware that Tayce had glanced at him a few times since he’d hung up with Bergen.

Step to the side a bit and look around Tayce’s left shoulder, the voice instructed. 

He hesitated, then took a small step to the side and looked past Tayce. Standing on the sidewalk, yards and yards away, was a young woman, probably in her mid-twenties. Her blond hair was pulled back from her face, and she was wearing ripped, dark grey jeans and a snug, black t-shirt, the strap of her messenger bag slung across her chest. She was coming towards him, but slowly, and she kept looking back over her shoulder. Even at a distance, he could see her lovely face was troubled. She did not, he thought, look like an addict, a con artist, or a party girl out for a good time. There was an intelligence in her expression. A quietness about her. A sadness.

Her voice in his head was filled with urgency, and now he had the facial expressions to go with it. Bret, there is a blue van around the corner. I don’t know what it’s going to do, but you don’t have a lot of time. All I know is you need to be out of here. Now. I get these feelings. They’re never wrong. You’re in danger. I know it’s ridiculous—trust me, I know. But I’m not making this up.

I just don’t...you’re in my head! He stared at her accusingly. 

She stopped her approach and bit her lip. I know. It’s usually not this way. But please believe what I’m saying.

And how did you know I was talking to my daughter? 

I could hear the conversation. Her eyes widened in annoyance at the subject change. Irrelevant! Get back inside that club. You 

should be able to get Tayce to come with you, but try for the others, too, if you can. Bret, I’m not joking around. Her voice was growing more agitated. She shot a glance to her right. The van’s starting to move. Please. Just go. She looked panicked. He saw her clench her fists helplessly.

Instinct and his love for Bergen took over. Bret walked over and nudged Tayce’s arm. “Hey, come back inside with me a minute, there’s this girl you’ve got to see. Come on,” he pressed, “before she leaves.” He extended his invitation to the rest of them. 

Tayce, as the mystery girl had suggested, turned readily to accompany him. The other three were not as willing, busy as they were with conversation and the brunette’s flirtations. 

“Jack, come on, dude,” Bret urged, feeling an odd nervousness in his stomach. 

“I’ll be right back,” Jack Lane drawled, handing the woman, Cyn, his latest just-lit cigarette. “Gotta go see what Mr. James is up to.” 

“You’d better come back right away,” Cyn ordered, as she and Peter-the-bassist fell back into their conversation. 

Bret hesitated when he saw that those two weren’t coming. 

Go, she commanded in his head. They won’t follow you, concentrate on Jack and Tayce. You’re out of time. Move.

Without further hesitation, Bret guided Tayce inside the club, looking over his shoulder to check on Jack’s lazy progress, feeling nervously ridiculous all the while. The mystery girl, he noticed, was stepping more and more into the shadows, her eyes 

not leaving him. He blinked as she began to disappear, almost as if she were becoming a shadow herself.

Back inside the club, amid the bright lights and music, Bret admitted to himself that he felt the brief, overwhelming sensation that he’d just dodged a bullet of some sort. He wanted desperately to peek back outside and see if anything was happening, but Tayce was heading over to one of the bars, and Jack was side-tracked talking with a loud group of people. Bret had the strong feeling he needed to stay in with them for the moment. 

He joined Tayce at the bar a few minutes later. “Sorry, that girl just left,” he apologized, continuing the lie. 

“It’s alright,” said Tayce good-naturedly, raking his fingers through his long brown hair, pushing it away from his face. “I was getting tired of listening to Jack, if you can believe that, and I could use another drink. Haven’t seen you in a while, man, how’ve you been?” 

They sat at the bar talking for some time. They hadn’t seen each other face-to-face in well over six months due to touring and such, and each had long-considered the other to be one of their best friends. As they talked and laughed out loud, Bret’s relief was slowly replaced with a sense of foolishness. What in the hell had he been thinking? Where had that girl gone? If she was so concerned, if there was so much danger lurking, then why hadn’t she come in with them? He’d tried to talk to her again—in his head, Lord help him—and there had been only silence. What kind of a fool was he? Drugs in his drink, surely. Damn.

Nearly an hour had passed when Jack finally joined them, 

frowning at his phone, not entirely steady on his feet. “You believe this? My effing bass player left with that chick.” He shook 

his black hair back from his face and ordered another drink. 

“Yeah?” Tayce raised an eyebrow, feeding the drama. 

Jack shrugged. He was fairly drunk and somewhat stoned, but he was aware enough to know that his chosen woman for the evening was no longer around. “I don’t know. I went out just now, and they’re gone. It’s strange, though, when I was standing out there calling his phone, I swear I heard it ringing over by the dumpsters down the alley.” He drank from his glass. “I did not investigate.” 

Tayce chuckled, while Jack’s dark eyes scanned the room.

Bret felt the strangeness return to his stomach. “Let’s go look,” he offered, downing the rest of his drink and getting to his feet. “We can give him hell.” He had, truly, no desire to ferret out the whereabouts of Jack Lane’s wayward bassist and latest hook-up, but alarm bells were going off in his head. 

He followed Tayce and Jack back outside, and as he looked around, he saw no van, no mystery girl. No sign of Peter and Cyn. The street was empty. 

Jack tried Peter’s phone again, and they all heard the definite answering ringtone from the area of the dumpsters. They drew closer, calling for Peter and throwing out joking comments. But they found no one, and eventually, they stood still and just listened. 

“It’s coming from inside the dumpster,” deduced Tayce with a puzzled frown. 

“Peter wouldn’t throw away his phone,” said Jack dismissively. “He never lets that thing out of his sight.”

“Maybe your chick got mad at him and threw it in,” Tayce  suggested. 

Jack shook his head. “I’m telling you that he’d be in there  right now digging for it if she had.” 

There was a long, awkward moment of not knowing quite what to do. A knot was forming in Bret’s stomach.

Finally, Jack turned to leave, swaying a bit, but expertly righting himself. “Well, he obviously knows it’s there. Or not. I’m not fishing it out for him, either way, and I can’t hang around all night babysitting his ass. If he did lose it, at least I can tell him where to look.” 

They headed back into the club, and Jack turned towards the VIP room with a replacement woman in his sights, but Tayce and Bret returned to the bar. 

“You look like you saw a ghost out there,” Tayce observed, as they sat down and ordered fresh drinks. “You alright?” His brown eyes watched Bret with genuine concern.

Bret was staring into space. He was shaken, and he had to say something. “It’s the weirdest thing. I’ll be honest with you. When we were standing out there earlier, before I asked you to come in with me, I just suddenly got this horrible feeling. Like something bad was about to happen. Don’t ask—it’s never happened before. But it came on real strong, and I had this singular thought that we all needed to be back inside the club.” He shrugged and sipped his drink. “So, I made it up about that woman you needed to see.” He shook his head. “Crazier by the minute, that’s me, man. I’m sorry. The tour is taking its toll on my mind.”

Tayce laughed easily. “Well, whatever. I told you I was tired 

of listening to Jack. It was a win-win situation for me.” He drank some of his whiskey. “Strange about Peter’s phone though.”

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About the Author

Erika Fair was born and raised in Texas, where she lives with her husband and son. She graduated from The University of Texas at Austin and stayed in Austin as long as she could. When she is not forcing her favorite music upon her family or writing, she can usually be found hiking or planning future travels. “The Secret Girl” is her first novel.

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Spotlight: The Ocean’s Heart by Debbie Cassidy

Genre: Fantasy Romance

Publication Date: May 15, 2025

When the Sea King falls for the fake princess meant for his son.

Royal by name only, Thalia Faircaster has lived her life by the sword, in service to an isle that is rapidly descending into ruin—the lands growing bitter and infertile, even as the population grows.

When an alliance with the Northern Sea Realm promises her people a new home, Thalia willingly accepts the charge of escorting her adopted sister across the oceans to witness her wed to the Sea King’s only son.

King Vaarin’s people are cursed with infertility, and a royal marriage with a blessed Faircaster royal will dispel the blight on his people.

But the sea is a mercurial mistress, bringing a storm that tears Thalia’s sister and crew from her, leaving Thalia for dead.

Until King Vaarin finds her, mistaking her for the crown princess.

He believes Thalia to be his son’s betrothed, the key to restoring the fertility of his people, and his to protect until they reach safe waters.

The alliance is vital to Thalia’s people, and so she takes her sister’s place. Willing to woo the prince and seal the agreement.

So why is it the ancient king that makes her pulse race?

The Oceans Heart is a standalone romantasy filled with angst, sizzle, and the delicious tension of a forbidden romance.

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Debbie Cassidy lives in England, Bedfordshire, with her three kids and very supportive husband. Coffee and chocolate biscuits are her writing fuels of choice, and she is still working on getting that perfect tower of solitude built in her back garden. Obsessed with building new worlds and reading about them, she spends her spare time daydreaming and conversing with the characters in her head – in a totally non psychotic way of course. She writes Urban Fantasy, Fantasy and Reverse Harem Fantasy. All her books contain plenty of action, romance and twisty plots.

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Spotlight: Only in September by Cynthia Flowers

When Jacqueline follows her trusty Labrador Bailey down a hidden path to the beach, she's unaware that her vacation plans on a small island off the New England coast has already taken her life in a new direction. Running into an unassuming local beach comber stirs new thoughts, desires, and a self-determination she never knew she possessed. Jacqueline will need to trust her instincts and make the most of what fate has in store if she wants the future that, until now, she has only dared to dream of.

Excerpt

The ferry was taking its sweet time making its way to Block Island. 

Time is the ultimate dictator. Where did I hear that? I couldn’t have just come up with that one on my own. 

Jacqueline French grabbed one of the last outside seats on the Block Island Ferry. It had only left Point Judith, RI, ten minutes ago, but for her, it seemed like ten hours ago. This would be her fourth September visiting this tiny tear drop-shaped island nestled between the south coast of Rhode Island and Montauk Point, located at the eastern tip of the south fork of Long Island, New York. 

Over the last several years, both Montauk Point and Block Island had become popular and expensive vacation destinations for well-to-do Manhattanites. They came seeking a reprieve from the overly manicured crowds who flocked every summer to the more fashionable vacation locale known collectively as the Hamptons. 

She always preferred visiting Block Island this time of year, after many of the Labor Day vacation stragglers dispersed and the kids were back at school. Although there were still a fair number of visitors, the din of racing mopeds was confined mostly to the weekends. Thanks to Michael, who she met on her first trip to Block Island, she came to know virtually every back road and trail on this seven-mile-long by three-mile-wide island. Beyond its beauty, Jacqueline’s deeper connection with the island was its shape. She shed many tears lately over the fate of her marriage and the direction her life had taken. 

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Cynthia Flowers, a recently retired advertising professional, now grant writer, resides with her husband and four-year old Labrador named Eddie, at their “sanctuary” in Upstate New York, Although previously published, this is Cynthia's first book of fiction. Early on in grade school, Cynthia looked forward to creative writing class and enjoyed reading her stories aloud to her eager classmates.

Spotlight: Just One More Affair by Carly Phillips

Release Date: May 12

Oops, she did it again

A one-night stand with a billionaire.
A surprise pregnancy.
Can she trust his love?

Or is it the baby tying them together?

Charlotte Kendall never expected history to repeat itself after a one-night stand at a wedding. Especially since a past encounter left her co-parenting twin daughters she adores. Except this time, her baby daddy is a man she can’t resist.

Billionaire Jared Sterling always gets what he wants—and he wants Charlotte Kendall. When he learns she’s pregnant, he’s all in. But Charlotte’s past has taught this independent, single mom to guard her heart. She doubts Jared’s motives and believes he’s only invested for the baby.

Their chemistry is undeniable and Jared will do anything to convince Charlotte she’s his endgame. But her life is complicated and when her brother’s recklessness puts Charlotte in danger, Jared takes over, proving he’s offering the love and stability she has always craved.

Now Charlotte must decide—will she keep running from the man who’s offering her everything, or take a chance on love?

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Carly Phillips is the NY Times, Wall Street Journal, and USA Today bestselling author of over eighty sexy contemporary romances featuring hot men, strong women, and emotionally compelling stories her readers have come to expect and love. She is happily married to her college sweetheart and lives in Westchester County, NY. She is the mother of two adult daughters and three crazy dogs who star on her Facebook and Instagram pages. She loves social media and is always around to interact with her readers. Way back in 2002, Carly’s book, The Bachelor, was chosen by Kelly Ripa and was the first romance on a nationally televised book club. Carly loves social media and interacting with her readers. For more information on upcoming releases, sign up for her newsletter (below) and receive two free books!

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Spotlight: Her Darkest Hour by Suzy Henderson

Publication date: May 8th 2025

Genres: Adult, Fantasy, Historical

Synopsis:

In the shadow of war, a young woman must choose: deny her magic or wield it to stop a traitor before Britain falls.

England, 1939. A young witch. A nation at war. A spy hiding in plain sight.

As war looms over Britain, Eliza MacLean wants nothing more than an ordinary life. Raised on the Isle of Mull, she’s spent years denying her gifts—just as her mother insisted. But her grandmother taught her differently, whispering ancient knowledge of herbs, charms, and spells.

When her grandmother dies, Eliza seeks refuge in Cambridge with her cousin and the women of the WVS. But beneath its spires and blacked-out streets, Cambridge hides more than just scholars and soldiers. A secret network of witches is working to protect Britain from an enemy who knows magic is real—and seeks to weaponise it.

Drawn into the fight, Eliza is thrust into a world of espionage, deception, and occult warfare. Her rare abilities catch the attention of MI5 agent Alex Fletcher, who needs her help to unmask a deadly spy before it’s too late.

As she learns to harness her power, Eliza finds herself torn between duty and love, risking everything for Jim, a fighter pilot whose fate seems written in the stars. But war is ruthless, and magic has a price.

With the spy closing in and the war reaching new heights of peril, Eliza’s only hope of saving those she loves is to embrace the very magic she’s spent a lifetime hiding—no matter the cost.

But some powers were never meant to be used.

Perfect for fans of A Discovery of Witches and The Rose CodeHer Darkest Hour blends historical fiction with supernatural intrigue in a gripping tale of war, witchcraft, and sacrifice.

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Suzy Henderson is the author of The Beauty Shop, Madame Fiocca, and SPITFIRE, novels which are set during the turbulent times of World War Two. She also writes romance and recently released a novella, Christmas in the Highlands, a best seller on Amazon UK.

Her debut novel, The Beauty Shop, was awarded the B.R.A.G. Medallion. It is based on the true story of pioneering plastic surgeon, Sir Archibald McIndoe, and the Guinea Pig Club – an exclusive club for RAF pilots and airmen who required plastic surgery as a result of their war injuries and were under the care of this enigmatic New Zealander.

Madame Fiocca is also based on a true story. This gripping adventure follows the tempestuous life of SOE heroine, Nancy Wake before and during the Second World War.

Suzy lives with her family on the edge of the Lake District, where she can be found rambling around lakes, country lanes or roaming the fells. Armed with a pen, a love of reading and a growing obsession with military and aviation history, she is often lost in the 1940s, writing historical fiction. 

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Spotlight: Romantic Friction by Lori Gold

Publication Date: May 6, 2025

Publisher: Harlequin Trade Publishing / MIRA

Sofie Wilde’s bestselling fantasy romance series has been breaking bestseller records and readers’ hearts for years. She’s primed to become a worldwide phenomenon as the tenth and final book is set to debut after the annual romance readers convention takes place in Chicago next week. As buzz continues to build toward the book’s release, Sofie is asked to headline the event for the first time, a career milestone. One she won’t let anyone take from her, especially “the next Sofie Wilde.”

That’s what they’re calling her—Hartley West, the self-published debut author who writes in the style of Sofie Wilde. Except she doesn’t actually “write” anything. After Hartley admits to using AI to create her novel, Sofie’s ready to watch Hartley be skewered on social media. Except in this unpredictable world, Hartley is instead lauded for being innovative, for being such a skilled editor to take what the AI churned out and massage it into a story that’s just as compelling as Sofie’s—maybe even more so.

After her unhinged rant unintentionally goes viral, Sofie loses her keynote, and she’s starting to lose all her support. That loss is Hartley’s gain—as her book sales start soaring, she’s given the headliner spot. Sofie is livid. And she’s not the only one. As the convention begins, Sofie is surrounded by fellow authors who also fear for their futures, their livelihoods, their art being stripped away, one AI prompt at a time. Something must be done. This has to be stopped. Now. With the clock ticking down to the keynote, Sofie enlists her fellow authors in a plan to stop Hartley, vowing, “‘The next Sofie Wilde’—over my dead body. Or hers.”

Lori Gold has crafted a raucous romp through the world of publishing, asking what it really means to be a writer in the time of AI, perfect for fans of Finlay Donovan is Killing It and Emily Henry.

Excerpt

ABOUT THE AUTHOR 

It’s a commonly held belief that in order to be a good author you have to be drunk or tortured. To be a great author? Both. I am a great author. I am occasionally drunk (though not at present). But I am not prone to sprawled-on-the-bathroom-floor bawling. I have not, nor will I ever, utter the phrase: “Please don’t make me adult today.” And I am not the least bit disturbed by crawling into a king-size bed alone. 

All that’s to say, I am not, nor have I ever been, tortured. 

But there truly is a first time for everything. 

The bookstore buzzes like an active hive. Beyond these rolling partitions masquerading as shelves, cushioned folding chairs cradle bums of all shapes and sizes and stages of cellulite. They are here for me. As I am here for them. This is my hometown. And this is the bookstore in my hometown that Jocelyn and Torrence and Callum and little Vance built, word by word, page by page, chapter by chapter, book by book. That I share with no one. 

I am not a charity. 

My coattails are not for riding. 

Tell that to Lacey, my publicist for the last ten years. I already did. Multiple times and with only one expletive. (Which honestly is the definition of restraint.) And yet, I am here. Because Blaire, my agent with a heart mushier than a ripe peach, intervened on Lacey’s behalf and asked me to be. 

Listen, that this industry is harder to navigate than Gen Z slang is not lost on me. I’m not completely averse to the idea of paying it forward, even though when I was starting out no one gave me so much as a linty nickel. But you can be damn sure that if a bestselling author who helped to define my genre had invited me (via said publicist) to a bookstore’s celebration of their blockbuster series, I’d have been on time. 

Not late. By twenty minutes—and counting. 

I reach for the partition cordoning off this back room, my rose gold bangles clattering as I wiggle free a chapter book—a tale about monsters hiding in school cubbies that must be the bane of every kindergarten teacher’s existence. A ghost of a smile plays on my lips, affection for my kindred spirit of an author who came up with this. I set the book aside and peek through the slim gap. 

Heart-shaped helium balloons kiss the ceiling, “library” candles that smell of old books and lavender flicker on the windowsills, and my favorite cushioned armchair beckons from behind my usual signing table, an old desk with legs fashioned out of stacked books. Hanging above the register is a poster of the first nine titles in this series I nearly gave a kidney to make happen (don’t ask). 

The dozens who have traveled from as close as Boston and as far as Iowa wait with more patience than me alongside half the residents of this small seaside town. 

With so many bodies, the room temperature rises. The air turns electric. And I come alive. I wriggle my head out of my introverted shell and gorge myself on the energy of the crowd. I’m no longer a little girl with debilitating stage fright, convincing my teachers I’d been bitten by a squirrel or had a seven-foot-long tapeworm in my belly to get out of an oral report. Turns out I’ve always been good at lying. 

Lies, fibs, fabrications, tall tales. That’s all writing is, really, being good at making things up, convincing others that a little boy with freckled cheeks and a mop of carrot-colored hair can bend universes in one breath and giggle at fart jokes in the next. Ah, little Vance—everyone’s favorite character. Which is why he had to die. My socials will be flooded with heartbreak emoji and death threats when fans get their hands on this last book. 

My god, do I love my job. 

“Sofie, our little Sofie.” 

I would take these words as a slight, given my five-footstature, if they weren’t coming from a woman slipping behind the partition with arms outstretched, a half dozen tiny pencils poking out of her salt-and-pepper bun, and a “Roxanne (as in Bel Canto!)” name tag on her ample left breast (the right is ample too, but there’s just the one name tag). 

“Sofie Wilde, the hero of the harbor.” Roxanne repeats the same refrain each time I enter this store, be it through the back for an event like today or the spontaneous (read: alwaysstaged) drop-ins through the front to “casually” browse and be photographed with some new release Roxanne’s exuberance and penchant for underdogs caused her to overbuy. She posts them on the store’s Instagram. Knowing this, some of the younger authors, freed from the decorum handcuffs of my generation, have been bold enough to send extra copies of their books to the store. The feed for Harbor Books is the only place you’ll see me posing with a novel that isn’t mine. It’s my rule. Roxanne, somehow, over all these years, remains the exception. 

“Tell me,” Roxanne says, wiggling her phone and pressing the side button to shut it down. “And not even Instagram will hear. Will Vance be able to restore the cosmic balance in time for Jocelyn to choose Torrence? Because she will, naturally. It must be Torrence.” 

My face remains hard as steel. 

“Sofie,” Roxanne coaxes. “It’s me. We did this together. We built this store as a team. This is ours.” 

Roxanne also has a penchant for hyperbole. Still, these days, my fantasy romance series—what this Gen Z, grammar-phobic world now calls “romantasy”—is a New York Times bestseller, and I have more than half a million followers on social media. But fifteen years ago, I was a thirty-five-year-old woman with mousy brown hair, clear plastic-framed eyeglasses, and self-made bookmarks rolled off my laser printer in need of a yellow cartridge. A self-published author without the financial means to promote myself. That’s when I met Roxanne. 

When I walked through the door of Harbor Books with my sack of sad-looking bookmarks and shoddily glued-together manuscripts, Roxanne didn’t even wait for me to finish my plea to support a local author. She was already slapping price stickers on the back and arranging them in a three-foot-tall window display. Hers was the first store to stock my books. She was the first bookstore owner to host an event with me. In return, I’ve held every launch party here, and Harbor Books is the only store where readers can preorder signed copies with one-of-akind swag. Whenever I have my last launch (a very, very, very long time from now), it’ll be here. 

Roxanne bats her eyelashes. “I can better serve you and the book if I know how to respond to customer inquiries.” She gives me that syrupy smile we both know is exaggerated. “Truly, there were no advance reader copies printed? Not even for Jenna? Reese?” 

“Not a one,” I say, firmly, though of course there were. Stripped of the cover with confidential and sharing prohibited upon penalty of death written across the front (though, as I think about it, no one ever confirmed the use of that perfectly reasonable suggestion). 

A small number of advance reader copies are always necessary in this industry that relies on prepublication buzz to anoint its bestsellers, and my publisher plays the game well, distributing copies to high-profile outlets for review. I could have secured one for Roxanne, but Vance’s death is the surprise of the series and she’s terrible at keeping secrets. A photo of her still hangs on the wall of shame at the single-screen movie theater across the street for telling everyone that Bruce Willis’s character in The Sixth Sense is actually dead. (Ooh, did I just pull a Roxanne? Whoops.) 

A ding announces the opening of the front door. Roxanne peers around the partition to confirm it’s her. 

“Break a spine!” Roxanne says, whooshing out. 

Instead of following, I pause to peer through that tiny gap on the bookshelf. 

My “invited” guest, the author who will ask me a few questions and then moderate ones from the crowd, hovers at the front of the store, seemingly unsure, eyes scanning the room. Silver hair past her shoulders, flowy cotton skirt, well-worn canvas tote bulging with what can only be useless buttons and cheap pens and glitter tattoos she paid for herself. She has no marketing budget for swag or anything else. She’s only here because of me. 

No one had heard of Hartley West until a month ago. As happens (usually thanks to a hefty Venmo transfer), an influencer “discovered” Hartley’s self-published debut, Love and Lawlessness. That influencer gushed about it and set off a trend among her fellow movers and shakers—leaders of the “next wave” of how books are found, the whole cadre featured in an article in The New York Times. Like a snowball, more and more readers “found” and recommended Hartley’s book. Said it reminded them of me. 

The next Sofie Wilde. That’s what they’re calling her. Over my dead body. 

“Ms. Wilde?” 

I turn. 

“Are we missing anything?” 

The bookstore employee—Amy (just like in Little Women!) according to her name tag—lifts a large wooden tray as if making an offering to the gods. On it are three black Sharpies with an ultra-fine tip, a pad of sticky notes (blue), six peppermint-flavored lozenges, two glasses of water, no ice, and a bottle of hand sanitizer disguised as hand lotion. 

I’m not a diva. (Despite how it sounds.) I’ve simply paid my dues. I’ve earned the right to be here, to be doing this, and I want to do it well. 

“It’s perfect, Amy,” I say just as on the other side of this partition, chair legs scratch against the floor. 

I return to my peekaboo window. Hartley West has circled the table. She drops her bag on the seat of the armchair. The single armchair. The chair that is mine. She puts her back to the room. Her eyes are closed. Her hand presses against her breastbone, and I wonder if this is her very first event. I’m positive it’s her very first event like this. I remember the feeling. And by feeling I mean fear. Maybe that’s why she was late. I feel a momentary surge of empathy toward her, understanding what it was like to be just starting out, to be hoping and praying to all the gods and no particular god (to cover all the bases) for the doors of publishing to open even the tiniest crack. 

I watch Hartley’s chest inflate and deflate, and suddenly I feel like I’m intruding. I lower my gaze, but I can still hear her on the other side, the faint mumbling as she repeats her pitch one final time. Rehearsing the quippy soundbite that we authors spend more time writing than the actual book. We are actors without training. Performers without a safety net. We are thrust into the spotlight despite our desire to avoid it being what led most of our introverted selves to become writers in the first place. When we stand before a crowd, be it one or one thousand, we must be witty and wise. 

I am. 

Is “the next Sofie Wilde”? 

Honestly, what is that? Is it supposed to be a compliment? Me being replaced? Isn’t that called a coup? 

Flump. 

Flump, flump, flump, flump. 

I resume my spying. Hartley West is plopping stacks of bookmarks on the table beside a two-foot-tall tower of books that she must have pulled from her Mary Poppins tote. 

She then reaches into that bag and draws out a single sheet of paper. I watch as she carefully folds it in two. Printed on the front, in big blocky aquamarine letters, is her name and underneath: CO-PANELIST. 

I text Lacey: Hartley West, what did you say to her? 

Lacey: She’s late, I know. Roxanne’s been hounding me. 

Me: She’s here. With a “co-panelist” name card. 

Lacey: WTF? 

Me: My thoughts exactly. 

Lacey: Looping in Blaire. 

But Blaire wouldn’t overstep. She may have a heart that bleeds so much she needs daily transfusions, but she defers to Lacey on all things publicity related. Lacey started as my in-house publicist, working for a publisher where she had more authors to handle than romance authors have euphemisms for penis. Lacey hung out her own shingle after helping me hit the New York Times bestseller list with book four, and I became her first client. 

Blaire: It must be a misunderstanding. 

Lacey: Damn straight, because if you look up the definition of limelight, you will see Sofie right here and now. Not Sofie and Hartley West. She came out of nowhere at the pinnacle of Sofie’s career. Sofie cannot validate this flash in the pan at her own event. 

Sofie: Isn’t that what I said to you? Right before you hit “click” on the posts promoting this entirely predictable debacle? 

Lacey: I’ll fix it. 

Lacey could talk a lobster into a pot of water—then get it to use its own claw to turn up the heat. 

And yet . . . in exchange for a blurb, I once offered to donate a kidney to a bestselling author on dialysis (I said not to ask). I had to fight for every reader at the start. 

Just like “the next Sofie Wilde.” 

And if karma exists, I need it on my side. Today marks the beginning of the end for Jocelyn and Torrence and Callum and little Vance. I mourn them. A part of me always will. They’ve rented space in my head for more than ten years. I know what they eat for breakfast and what they’d wear to a funeral and the fears that paralyze them. Things I barely know about myself. But it’s time to let them go, and along with them, shifting universes and alternate dimensions and three-headed beasts. At least for a little while. I’m not leaving romance behind—I may have my flaws, but self-sabotage is not one of them. But the idea of penning a meet-cute that doesn’t involve fantastical elements like a talking dolphin or a sidekick with yellow feathers makes me all warm and fuzzy (though honestly, that could also be the hot flashes). 

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Lori Gold is the author of four novels for young adults as well as an adult historical novel (all under Lori Goldstein). She teaches creative writing at Grub Street in Boston and lives on the South Shore of Massachusetts. She can be found online at www.lorigoldsteinbooks.com

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