Q&A with Rob Tonkin

What inspired you to choose the title, and how does that label reflect your journey and the people you encountered throughout your life?

The title is bold, and "the proverbial they" say the title is how people discover a book. As someone who had a career in marketing before I became an author, I can tell you that is definitely a part of it! It also represents a version of myself that I’ve since moved beyond. But "asshole" is a word with a ton of different meanings. For me, it’s a metaphor for how people can treat one another—sometimes unknowingly, sometimes with malice, and often just as a learned behavior.

Two good people raised me, but their treatment of me left a lot to be desired. The betrayals, abandonment, and neglect I experienced, I consider to be asshole behavior. And then I was sexually abused by people I worked for—people who were, without a doubt, assholes. Assholes seemed to be everywhere in my life, and over time, I absorbed it all and became one myself. The book is about how I fell, and what it took for me to rise. It’s not just a history of assholes, but more of a common thread running through the narrative. Ultimately, this book is a mirror for anyone who’s wrestled with masks, the need for approval, and that deep hunger to feel like you are enough.

You describe growing up with privilege but lacking emotional connection. How did that tension between success and emotional isolation inform your early choices?

That tension really gave me the push I needed to become independent and build a life of my own. But in the process, I missed out on a lot of my childhood. As a kid, I lacked the emotional intelligence to navigate the chaos around me, so I found ways to survive. After a while, all the bumps and excitement started to feel normal. I was like an animal constantly in fight-or-flight mode. The tension came from this constant push and pull between pain and redemption. I was drawn to the polished cliques and the glitz of the entertainment industry, yet in the book, I share all the cracks I saw in that shiny facade, both while I was living it and after the dust settled.

You worked with huge names like The Black Eyed Peas, blink-182, and One Direction. From the outside, it looks glamorous—what was it really like behind the scenes? At what point did you realize the glamour didn’t match reality—and how did that realization impact your personal identity?

Most people I met in the entertainment industry were probably dealing with some level of a dysfunctional childhood, just like me. Because of that, the environment felt strangely comfortable. Getting screamed at didn’t bother me the way it might bother others. For years, I was completely unaware, just seeking validation from people higher up in the pecking order. Meeting bands was a rush, like any other compulsion or addiction that makes you feel good—at least for a little while. The bigger the talent, the better the rush. It started with local bands and then had to be national acts to get that same feeling of accomplishment. And then bigger and bigger names to bring the same sensation. Eventually, all of it wore off, and it mattered very little.

For those who think the backstage of concerts is a non-stop party, that's not true. But public figures do have an unfair advantage and are treated like VIPs by almost everyone. Being in their entourage gave me access to similar perks. Some of those were amazing and incredibly fun, but like fireworks, they were fleeting.

How did the mentorship and early abuse you mention shape your work patterns and emotional responses in adulthood?

It most affected my ability to trust other people. I lived from a place of being a victim, and I was attracted to that weakness in my relationships. It also gave me the fuel I needed to manipulate and control situations to get what I wanted.

Looking back as an adult, do you feel if young Rob talked with his dad about the abuse, would that have changed the trajectory of your relationship?

I honestly don’t know. I can imagine my father’s reaction might have made the situation worse. I never told my parents about the sexual abuse I experienced in the late 70s. My father was so conservative that it was impossible to predict what he’d do, and I feared something much worse than simple anger, like total humiliation. I feared he would blame me, or forbid me from working at the radio station and pursuing my dreams, maybe berate me, or use it against me to control me.

I was also afraid he would react in an overly pragmatic way, pulling out a legal pad to get the facts, devoid of emotion, maybe even involving law enforcement. Or, possibly even worse, that he would react with uncontrollable, nervous laughter, as if the pain I was sharing was too absurd to process. I even thought it was possible he would just turn into a silent statue, completely unresponsive. Because of these fears and the lack of a close relationship, that job and my dream of being somebody in the entertainment world became my lifeline, my entire survival system.

Your memoir balanced moments of humor, brutally honest and grit. How did you strike a balance between vulnerability and humor in recounting deeply personal—and painful—experiences? Did it reopen wounds that you healed?

There are definitely some fears that come with sharing a story as raw as mine. I didn’t set out to be witty or to make readers cry. For me, vulnerability has a secret power, and I used that to weave together the words of each wild story. The entire experience of writing the book was both painful and relieving. I revisited many emotional wounds stored deep in my body and mind, which ultimately led to a cathartic feeling, much like the story arc itself.

How did you navigate deciding which stories to include—and which to omit—to create a coherent, emotionally impactful memoir?

The first draft included everything—and I mean everything—totaling nearly 200,000 words. I had the help of a skilled journalist and editor whom I’ve known for years, which meant we were comfortable enough to disagree on things as much as we agreed. They helped me sort through that mountain of stories and text to shape the narrative. But I also kept editing as I went, losing count of the iterations. I rearranged parts and cut entire stories or segments that made the manuscript feel slow. I wanted to make sure each chapter could stand on its own while still having smooth transitions to keep the reader engaged. Then I added more life to scenes with vivid descriptions, levity, and dialogue.

I didn't have a specific reader in mind, but I knew I wanted concise chapters because that’s how I enjoy reading books. So they kept getting shorter, and I kept adding more of them. There’s a satisfaction that comes with finishing a few chapters or a whole section in a short time, and that became my goal—to give readers the same pleasure I find in a gripping page-turner.

Who do you most hope reads your memoir, and what would you want them to feel or learn from your story of trauma, industry culture, and transformation?

There isn’t one specific person I have in mind. I hope my book offers hope to those who believe they’re doomed to a miserable life. My journey is proof that the “defective programming” I received as a kid can be reprogrammed. It’s not easy, and I don’t know any shortcuts. Many readers have asked me for a blueprint, but that’s the core issue—no one, not a skilled therapist or an intellectual, can tell another person how to fix themselves. Everyone has to find their own way to change, their own recipe for reprogramming. I hope my book can be a catalyst for that.

As for industry culture, our society places too much importance on public figures. They make mistakes just like everyone else. Cancel culture is a complex issue, and it’s difficult to separate a person’s genius or the adoration they receive from their monstrous deeds. When it comes to my own transformation, that’s all I can control and be responsible for. I hope people can see that my damaged parts and bad decisions are not just excuses, but components of who I am. Forgiveness supports my self-love; in that sense, my story isn’t unique, but what would satisfy me in sharing it is if reading it helps others.

Now that you’ve shared your truth in this memoir, what’s next for you—personally or professionally?

I am indeed writing more. What that looks like is still unclear right now, but I have several ideas in development. One of the reasons I chose to publish this book instead of keeping it as a keepsake for my friends and family was to explore the unknown opportunities that might arise from releasing it into the wider world.

If younger Rob could hear this memoir someday, what do you hope he’d understand—or forgive—in himself?

The grief and shame that come from trauma include mistrust, a distorted self-image, and the loneliness of despair and isolation. I hope he would understand and forgive the poor reactions I had to these and other feelings—the reactions that came from those deep wounds.

About the book:

What if the life you built—the success, the status, the wealth—was just a carefully crafted illusion hiding the truth you refused to face?

In this unflinchingly honest memoir, a man born into privilege but starved of emotional connection takes readers on a California journey through ambition, excess, and the painful search for self-worth. Raised in a dysfunctional household, he spent his childhood yearning for love and validation, only to chase approval in all the wrong places—first in the cool cliques of his youth, then in the seductive but empty world of entertainment.

From rubbing shoulders with Hollywood icons to battling imposter syndrome, self-destruction, and the weight of his own unhealed wounds, he learned the hard way that no amount of wealth or popularity could mend a fractured soul. But through disciplined effort, self-reflection, reckoning with past mistakes, and embracing the uncomfortable truths about himself, he discovered something greater than success: authenticity.

Told with sharp wit, brutal honesty, and a hard-earned sense of redemption, this memoir is a gripping testament to the resilience of the human spirit.

If you’ve ever questioned your own worth, chased the wrong dreams, had someone call you an asshole, or wondered if true change is possible—this story will stay with you long after the final page.

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Q&A with Tom Hruby and James Pomerantz, The Breacher's Playbook

The Breacher’s Playbook asks a powerful question: What happens when the skills that kept you alive in war are no longer welcome in everyday life? What inspired you and Tom to explore that theme in such a personal and intense way?

JAMES: Transitioning from military life to civilian life is a struggle for so many veterans, especially those from Special Operations. When training for more than a decade appears to be for skills no longer needed, questions inevitably arise surrounding, what next? Tom and I talked extensively about how the book’s main character (retied SEAL Deklan Novak) struggling with his transition into civilian life would react if he suddenly found himself in a position to put those military skills to use again. What is someone capable of doing if unspeakable harm is done to a family member or friend? Is this the most revealing character examination that a man can be confronted with? 

TOM: The truth is that most of us spend a decade after service trying to recreate ourselves and transition into something acceptable by modern society. Most special forces guys are warriors at the core long before they attend BUD/s or the like.  Given years of training and experience we become masters of our craft – guaranteed only for the wars to end and the need for our skills on the battlefield to wane.  

Guys like me get bored if not effectively used and decide to move on.  Of course we are unprepared for how dissatisfying life in the regular world can feel.  We desire to make great impact, but the reality is that the skills of a legitimate warrior do not carry over easily.  

I consider myself a highly trained warrior fortunate to be able to just sit back and enjoy the regular world while it is still here. Personally, it has given me a great sense of peace about how my life experience is not wasted nor irrelevant.  For me, it would be impossible to tell my story without exploring this transitioning theme. The entire story is about the journey of a man finding peace, purpose, and balance between power and restraint in a bold new world.  It is a story of rediscovery, reconciliation, and redemption.  

Deklan Novak’s journey touches on grief, reinvention, and moral complexity. How much of his story is drawn from Tom’s real experiences—and how did the two of you choose which elements to fictionalize?

JAMES: Deklan’s journey is all drawn from Tom’s real-life experiences until Deklan is recruited by the FBI, joins their Quantico training facility,  and is sworn in as a Special Agent assigned to a Violent Crimes Against Children squad. The elements we chose to fictionalize, fall in line with Tom’s remarkable achievements. He is in his early forties and his life is far from complete. Deklan Novak became the fictional vehicle for imagining what’s next. Tom never believed the bar was ever set too high.

TOM:  Declan feels like me.  He thinks like me.  He is complex like me.  Deklan wrestles with ambiguity every step of the way.  And he knows it.  Or at least, he is increasing his awareness of life’s ambiguities.  At the same time, he is a damaged, traumatized man as we all are. He is dealing with his personal grief while confronting the grief of the outside world.  We get to watch Deklan bounce back and forth as he molds his new understanding of the world.  

The novel unfolds in nonlinear chapters over two decades. Why did you choose this structure, and how does it reflect Deklan’s internal transformation?

JAMES:  Nonlinear structures allow authors to immerse the reader right away in what the character is made of. Many times, as a reader, I am tempted to skip all the early biographical details in a novel to get to the meat of the story. A nonlinear structure eliminates the temptation to skip ahead.

TOM: I have always loved nonlinear story telling.  It provides an immediate richness to the story and characters that are unattainable with other formats.  It also allows great freedom in adding variation to the back story.  I feel that once you get it right it opens up vast opportunity to color the story in almost any way that you like.  I am also simply drawn to the fact that it is complex and difficult to do well.  This structure alone is artful.  

From combat missions to courtroom testimony to college football, the novel spans vastly different worlds. What was the biggest challenge in weaving those threads together?

JAMES:  By choosing a nonlinear structure and traveling from combat to the courtroom to the football field, the biggest challenge was what every author must confront which is preventing the reader from putting the book down. The subjects help. The interest level provided by combat experiences, playing Division-1 football and the intricate inequities in our legal system regarding abused children begin at the highest level. Our only goal from that point on was not to disappoint the readers with a predictable script. A great novel based on a true story feels real from page one.

TOM: There is so much story that was removed from the original manuscript.  We hope to tell those stories in subsequent books.  It was difficult deciding what we would remove from the original manuscript of over 600 pages.  I felt like the integrity of the characters and total story would suffer greatly as we cut story after story.   Fortunately, I think that James is rather a genius and the book is actually better cut nearly in half.  I am not quite sure how James did it. He somehow has the ability to see the whole story in his mind.  

Deklan is both a warrior and a witness—a character shaped by trauma, loyalty, and a deep moral code. How did the two of you approach writing a character who is both emotionally guarded and deeply empathetic?

JAMES: As a co-author but not the subject material, I only had to look inside Tom Hruby to find the morality inside of Deklan Novak. My father didn’t have to pat me on the back or reward me for acting the way I was supposed to act. I was expected to follow his lead. Tom didn’t have to explain to me what he was all about. I followed his lead.

TOM: Deklan is an enigma, even to himself.  He is discovering himself, piece by piece. As readers, we see this happen.  We get to see why he behaves a certain way before he even knows why.  We see why he is guarded emotionally and watch him confront his unconscious traumas in real time.  I think that is a fun part of the story, how readers can anticipate the way in which Deklan will confront his own thinking and decision making.  I think our structure is remarkable in how layered a character and environment we created.  

Kaley’s storyline is haunting and painfully real. Why did you decide to place Deklan in a position where he must navigate emotional and legal gray areas so far removed from combat?

JAMES: Again, this falls back on what is the purest form of character examination. Deklan, as a Navy SEAL, is paid to protect the nation and is the wall that our enemies must get over if they want to defeat the nation. An abused child is defenseless, much like the public in wartime. SEALs do not endure hell for a paycheck. SEALs endure hell for a lifetime of respect. That doesn’t end with retirement from the Navy.

Tom, as a Navy SEAL and former Division I athlete, and James, as a seasoned novelist how did your collaboration begin? What was the writing process like between such different life experiences?

JAMES: I met Tom at Northwestern football summer camp in 2014. I was working on another novel about an older college football player. Head Coach Pat Fitzgerald was a friend and allowed me to be a guest at training camp. There, Pat introduced me to Tom Hruby. Tom and I became friends but did not begin work on The Breacher’s Playbook until 2023. Writing with Tom is a breeze. He did all the hard stuff!

TOM:  We met at Northwestern Kenosha summer football camp in 2014.  We became friends discussing several projects over nearly ten years.  Our lives got in the way of this project until 2024.  I always knew that I wanted to work with James and when it turned out that we both were still interested and motivated it was easy.  Surface level James and I appear different but we are very much the same character.  We are both explorers, truthtellers, adventurers, teachers, and men of integrity.  When men like this come together, it is pretty easy.

The book pulls back the curtain on elite military training, college athletics, and child protection investigations. What kind of research went into making each of those worlds feel so vivid and true to life?

JAMES: Tom’s grueling experiences at BUD/s and as a D-1 football player came to life on the page quickly. I traveled to Quantico and the FBI Academy for an unprecedented access visit to a secure military base. The FBI Academy is on the Marine Base at Quantico, Virginia. Tom’s SEAL background opened doors that normally never opened at the FBI Academy. The lead instructor at the Academy was a former Navy SEAL and knew Tom. He gave us hours at the base to show us every step of training that an FBI agent endured throughout his time in the academy.

TOM: I have experienced them first hand.  We also had unprecedented access to experts and facilities.  

If the book were adapted for the screen, who would you want playing Deklan—and what tone would you want the adaptation to strike.

JAMES: Tom and I have discussed this question at length. I was leaning towards Tom Hardy as Deklan, but age and similar roles may creep into the boundaries. Timothy Chalamet is a great actor but would have to bulk up for the role. Chris Pine, Chris Pratt and Jake Gyllenhaal are all possible candidates, but a similar role tag may come into play. The tone of the movie must be thriller laced with the testosterone humor associated with SEAL teams, football teams and law enforcement. 

TOM: My sons think that I should play Deklan.  

The Breacher’s Playbook is the first in a planned trilogy. The book ends with Deklan joining the FBI. What can you tell us about where Deklan’s story goes next?

JAMES: Deklan grows frustrated with the legal handcuffs associated with a federal agency and law enforcement in general, where it seems like more rights are given to criminals than the victims. Deklan will explore outside opportunities to use his skill set more effectively through a privately funded police force made up of Special Operations veterans.

TOM: Deklan does not stay with the Feds for very long.  He grows increasingly disillusioned with the bureaucracy and impotency of government agencies.  Deklan is lured away from governmental institutions to something far more versatile, dynamic, funded, and functional.  

About The Playbook:

Deklan fought his demons in the combat zones of Iraq and Afghanistan as a Navy SEAL breacher and now in Chicago as a special agent for the FBI’s Violent Crimes Against Children squad.

That grit will be what he leans on in his new role as a tough FBI agent tasked with unraveling the disappearance of two children from a daycare center owned by his mother in this first installment.

This debut narrative, the first in a planned three-book series, is a fictional account based on Hruby’s real-life story.

The mystery thriller lays the groundwork for what the authors describe as a recurring character who is hard, fast, and mean as a razor wire. Deklan’s life path is one of determination and sacrifice in the face of defeat. That grit will be what he leans on in his new role as a tough FBI agent tasked with unraveling the disappearance of two children from a daycare center owned by his mother in this first installment.

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Q&A with Simon Tolkien, The Room Of Lost Steps

Why is your novel called The Room of Lost Steps?

Because I got lucky!

In the summer of 2019, I spent a week in Barcelona doing research. I had a series of sites to see, but changed my schedule on the last day because my tour guide happened to mention that Antoni Gaudí’s architectural masterpiece, the Güell Palace, had been used as a communist prison or cheka during the Civil War.

As I passed through the wrought iron entrance archway and entered the cavernous lamplit vestibule, I felt a sense that I had left the world behind and that the palace was magical, turned in on itself, alive and watchful, in a way I had never experienced in any building before. And as I walked through the beautiful halls with their thick walls clad in ebony and rosewood, iron and stone, I felt a dawning certainty that this was where the climax to my book would play out. As if my characters already existed there, their footsteps echoing on the marble stairs just like mine.

Finally, I came to a sumptuously decorated rectangular room with an elaborately coffered oak ceiling and snake-like ornaments, separated by three marble columns from a narrow gallery overlooking the street below. I looked in my guidebook and saw that this was the room of lost steps, so called because it was where supplicants waited to be admitted to the great hall beyond, walking up and down, thinking of what might lie ahead. Lost steps trod on the threshold of success or despair. But I knew that for my hero, Theo, this would be where his story would end; this would be the room where Esmond, his schoolfriend turned communist secret policeman, would interrogate high value anarchist prisoners brought up from the basement stables turned dungeons down below. Prisoners that would include the girl that Theo loved.

All the rest of that day, I took measurements and made notes, filled with a sense of gratitude and wonder. I felt as if the palace and the room of lost steps had been waiting for me, even though that of course made no sense, because I had stumbled on them by virtue of a chance remark. 

Back in America, the feeling stayed with me, and years later, when a friend read my book and suggested that The Room of Lost Steps should be its title, I knew immediately that she was right. Because it was the room where everything ended, and because of its mysterious name, and because it suggested the theme of loss and disillusionment that lies at the heart of Theo Sterling’s journey from boy to man.

What is the significance of the photograph on the cover of The Room of Lost Steps?

The photograph of Barcelona from the 1930s was taken, looking across Plaça de Catalunya to the Passeig de Gràcia. On the left, at the corner of the square, stands the imposing Hotel Colón, which was demolished in 1940 and replaced with a bank. The luxury hotel plays a vital part in my novel and the rapid changes that occurred there in 1936 -7 are central to the hero, Theo Sterling’s experience.

Theo visits Barcelona for the first time in the summer of 1936, and stays in the hotel with his mother and stepfather, looking down from the windows of his room at crowds of well-dressed people walking among the statues and fountains. But his excitement turns to horror when he sees the terrible carnage in the square following the fighting for control of the city between the army rebels and the anarchist workers on July 19th. 

In the evening, he witnesses the bravery of the Civil Guard commander who succeeds in negotiating a ceasefire, enabling the besieged soldiers holed up in the hotel to be evacuated; and afterward, he spends the happiest days of his life with Maria, the anarchist girl he loves, staying in the same room, now pockmarked with bullet holes.

They experience together the heady first days of the anarchist revolution in the city, walking up the Passeig de Gràcia to the Ritz Hotel which has been turned into a meal kitchen for the poor, who are eating off monogrammed plates under sparking chandeliers. For a moment, Theo believes that the meek have inherited the earth, until he is forced to flee Barcelona, hunted by anarchist enemies using their new power to settle old scores. 

He returns to the city the next year as an International Brigade soldier, only to find that the hotel has become the headquarters of his new master, the Communist party. A huge portrait of Stalin hangs down over the room where he was once so happy, and he has no answer to give when Maria tells him that “they take everything. Even you.”

Ninety years later, the Plaça de Catalunya is at the beating heart of the modern city of Barcelona, but many of those walking among the statues and fountains are unaware of the extraordinary events that once took place there, and which I have tried to bring to life in my novel. 

In the preface to the Room of Lost Steps, you wrote that the novel “is a fiction set withing real history,” What does that mean?

I have always believed that a historical fiction writer can add to history, but that he or she must not change it, because that would be to deceive the reader. But then, when I visited Barcelona to research this book, I realized that I had a unique opportunity to go further than addition, because the locations and timelines of the street fighting between the anarchists and the rebel soldiers on July 19, 1936 could provide a natural itinerary for my hero, Theo, to follow, thus enabling the reader to viscerally experience with him the principal events of the day through fiction wedded to history: a combination far more powerful than when the two just operate side by side.

In the book, I provide this map (Barcelona, Events of July 19, 1936) to enable the reader to follow Theo’s itinerary, and I’ve attached a copy to illustrate how it works. He is awoken at dawn by gunfire outside the Olympic Hotel where he is staying – (see the top left of the map). Outside, in the Plaça D’Espanya, he witnesses the horror of army cannons being fired down a crowded street causing “a scene of carnage that nothing in his life up to that moment could have prepared him for … severed arms and legs and other nameless chunks and strips of flesh hanging in the leafy branches …” He flees down the Paral-lel boulevard to a huge barricade at the Café Chicago built by the anarchists to stop the soldiers linking with other military units to the south and east. There, he participates in the heroic resistance to the army’s attacks and sees how it ultimately fails when the soldiers use a human shield of women and children to advance; and then, hours later, he meets more anarchist fighters and assists in the retaking of the barricade, before he is sent on as a messenger to bring news of the victory to the charismatic anarchist commander, Buenaventura Durruti, in the Ramblas. This encounter affects Theo profoundly and convinces him that he is “touching history”: the same reaction that I am hoping my readers will experience.

Inspired by the Barcelona chapters, I took the same approach of welding fiction and history together, when writing the war chapters in Part 2 of the novel. A group of volunteers did arrive at the front on the night before the Battle of Jarama without any military training, and Theo becomes one of them. His role as a runner messenger allows the reader to see first-hand the insanity of the orders that led to the unnecessary deaths of hundreds of Americans the next day, and a mutiny and court martial did occur after the battle just as described in the book …

Thus, history in The Room of Lost Steps becomes not just a framework for fictional events, but fuses with the fiction in the events themselves, allowing readers to share the experience of the men and women who lived through those extraordinary times. Their story is often shocking and distressing, but as I say in the Preface, “that is how it was”, and sometimes “history can appear stranger than fiction.” 

What effect does the Spanish Civil War have on the hero of the novel, Theo Sterling?

Theo joins the International Brigades half way through the novel for a number of reasons. He fell in love with Spain and with the firebrand anarchist girl, Maria, during the summers he spent in an Andalusian village before the War, and he wants to return to fight to prove himself worthy of her, and because his highly developed sense of social justice makes it impossible for him to stand aside while the Spanish Fascists seek to overthrow the democratically elected government, so as to preserve their power and wealth and keep the poor from escaping a condition of semi-serfdom that has prevailed for centuries. Theo’s life experience up to this point has led him to believe that a man can ‘touch history’ and make a difference to the world, and he is determined to put this to the test. 

At home, Theo’s stepfather tries to dissuade him from volunteering by describing his experience of the horrors of trench warfare in the First World War. But Theo won’t listen. Love and anger and belief drive him forward, and the second part of the book tells the story of what happens to these emotions when they are tested in the furnace of mechanized war.

Theo’s ideals help him to make a perilous crossing of the Pyrenees at night and his assignment to the Lincoln Battalion makes him feel that he has rediscovered his American identity. But thereafter the process of disillusionment quickly begins. He receives no training whatsoever before the incompetent Communist Brigade leadership throw the battalion into a suicidal attack in which they suffer 66% casualties without getting anywhere near the Fascist line. And after the battle, the survivors are kept as virtual prisoners in the trenches, so that they won’t be able to tell their stories to the new recruits. 

Another battle follows, and Theo experiences the full terror of modern warfare. As he shelters from the ceaseless shelling, parched and starving, he comes to understand that his stepfather was right. Flesh is no match for bullets and bombs, and courage does not win battles. Might will defeat right because the Spanish Republicans cannot match the Fascists as long as they are supported by Nazi Germany and Mussolini’s Italy, and the western democracies refuse to intervene. One soldier and his rifle have no significance in such equations, and in the end, all that Theo has left as he stumbles in retreat across the desert landscape is the need to save his wounded friend. 

The Room of Lost Steps is a story of belief and disillusionment, of hope and loss, and what is left of a man when his ideals are stripped away.

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Q&A with F. F. Mormanni

You’ve written across several genres—sci-fi, thriller, drama, fantasy, and horror. What draws you to explore such a wide range of stories?

As a kid, I was a voracious reader, and loved fantasy and sci-fi novels—anything with immersive world-building. So naturally, when I started writing my own stories, I leaned toward high fantasy. As time went on, I was exposed to a wider range of stories, mostly through regularly watching all kinds of films, and realized that I was interested in pretty much any genre if the themes were strong and the characters were compelling. 

I enjoy the challenge of writing stories in different genres. I think I am better at writing sci-fi and thriller, simply due to having practiced them more, but I don’t want to limit myself. 

Double Crossed and Mind the Gap both have unique titles—can you tell us the story behind them? 

Double Crossed is a medical techno-thriller novel about CRISPR and memory transfer technology being used for nefarious purposes—specifically, an attempt to infiltrate the government by surreptitiously planting a human clone in the White House, and how this impacts both geopolitics and the president’s relationship with his childhood best friend. For most of the writing process, I used a stand-in title, as nothing really clicked for me until after I had finished the first draft. 

Several characters in the novel are cloned using this technology without their knowledge or consent. The “double” in the title refers to both the literal existence of these clones and the duplicity required to keep them hidden. It’s a play on the espionage term “double cross” because, the doubles/clones, by impersonating their originals, betray the very values those originals stood for and the country for which they work.

I came up with the title for Mind the Gap early on in the writing process, though I didn’t fully develop its layered meaning until I had finished editing and started working on the script adaptation. The story follows rebellious young adults in the daredevil photography community—people who run through working subway tunnels, and climb bridges and skyscrapers. In the physical sense, the title refers to the gap between a safe subway platform and the dangerous subway tunnels. Additionally, “mind the gap” is a recurring statement over the loudspeakers on the London Underground (though my novel takes place in New York City). 

The title also represents the psychological gap between abstraction and reality. Rocco, the protagonist, and most of his friends stand on the brink of dangerous decisions, such as succumbing to the allure of drugs, trespassing, hanging out with the wrong crowd, or putting themselves in life-threatening situations. However, one of the themes I explore in the novel is that, although it might be tempting to participate in these risky behaviors, we have the ability to choose otherwise. 

How does your background in screenwriting influence the way you write novels, and vice versa?

When I come up with a story I think would work for both mediums, I usually write the novel first and then adapt it into a script. I find it easier to fully develop the world, characters, and plot in prose before figuring out how to extract the essentials into a much leaner format. 

This year is actually the first time I’m doing this process in reverse. With Whispered, my espionage thriller, the plot came to me quickly, and because screenplays are shorter, I decided to write the script first. Now I’m working on the novel version, and although having the skeleton already fully built is helpful, fleshing it out with the depth a novel requires is a completely different ballgame. 

My screenwriting background shapes the way I write novels, as I tend to visualize scenes cinematically. At the same time, writing novels is a good reminder of the importance of a strong literary tone, even for scripts, which tend to have limited word counts. 

Which of your literary influences—Asimov, Herbert, Tolkien, Rand—has shaped your voice the most, and how?

Ayn Rand has influenced my writing and my life in general more than any other author. Her writing style is incredibly clear, but also has a distinct artistic flair and sense of life. I re-read her fiction every few years and always discover something new. By regularly reading her works, I’ve learned how to develop conflict between characters and how to explore a wide range of themes within complex stories.

You’ve adapted some of your novels into screenplays. What’s the biggest challenge in translating your work for film?

The biggest challenge is learning how to extract the essentials from a novel to fit the constraints of a screenplay, which is typically around 120 pages, or two hours of screen time. As much as I would love to adapt every scene, the process requires cutting and reshaping certain things so they are more natural for actors to portray and more efficient for the screen. Descriptions need to be tight, but vivid—just enough for directors, producers, and other collaborators to understand the original vision.

How has performing at prestigious venues like Carnegie Hall and Lincoln Center shaped your approach to storytelling in other mediums?

Drawing from the old saying, “practice, practice, practice” to get to Carnegie Hall, it really did take years of consistent work before I could perform regularly at venues like that. It shaped my approach to storytelling in the sense that I understand how long it takes to get good at anything. I’ve carried that mindset into every other medium in which I work. 

Being in the classical music world has also exposed me to a wide range of experiences, including high-pressure situations. I’ve included some of these moments in scenes or storylines in my writing. 

You wear many hats—novelist, musician, producer, actress, and model. How do you stay creatively grounded across so many disciplines?

Practicing one discipline always helps me improve in others. For example, playing piano improves my dexterity, which carries over to flute and harp, and vice versa. Acting deepens my understanding of character development and dialogue, which makes me a stronger writer. 

I keep a database of ideas across all mediums. Some stories are better suited for film, others for a novel or piece of music. Being involved in multiple forms allows me to choose the format that works best for any given idea. 

I don’t always have enough time to work on everything every day, but I carve out time each week to work on creative projects. It’s important to be intentional about continuing to grow in each area over time. 

Looking back, which creative achievement are you most proud of—and why?

I’m most proud of getting into Juilliard. It was a dream I had since I first started playing flute and harp. During the year of my auditions, I reached a new level of playing that felt like the equivalent of fluency in a language. I could fully express myself musically and had achieved the technical mastery I had been working toward for years. What made it even more meaningful was being able to maintain a high level of playing under immense pressure.

If you could collaborate with any one of your listed influences—living or not—who would it be and on what kind of project?

Michael Crichton. I’ve always admired how he built such an impressive career as a novelist, screenwriter, director, and producer, all after going to medical school. Like Crichton, I enjoy weaving real science and technology into my plots and exploring how today’s discoveries might influence future advancements. If I could collaborate with him, I would want to co-write a feature script and have him or Spielberg direct it.

Are there any upcoming novels that we should look out for? 

Yes, Whispered is my upcoming novel, which I hope to publish in the near future. It’s an espionage thriller about a disgraced CIA operative who investigates the seemingly senseless murder of his brother and subsequently uncovers a neo-Nazi plot to overthrow the German government.

What advice would you give to artists trying to navigate multiple creative paths at once?

I think it’s important to pursue multiple creative paths, even though conventional wisdom says to focus on just one. It’s true that mastery takes time, but exploring different disciplines can make you more well-rounded, which almost always benefits your work. It also helps you figure out what you truly love and keeps the day-to-day process interesting. 

Structure also matters. I recommend setting a schedule so that each creative path gets the time it deserves. It doesn’t have to be rigid, but consistency is key. 

Industry relationships also play a big role. In entertainment especially, being active in one area can open doors in another. For instance, acting on a set might lead to writing opportunities. Producing a project might connect you with collaborators for another. Each path can end up supporting the others. 

Book Information:

Double Crossed

After reading about unusual autopsy findings of a recently deceased senator, President Jeremy Lewis opens an investigation into what is soon revealed to be an apparent foiled attempt to infiltrate the administration at the highest level through the use of medical and technological capabilities far beyond what is known to exist. President Lewis then enlists his childhood best friend and tech-savvy entrepreneur, Ian Richards, to assist him in the endeavor.

This same death arouses the suspicions of Ross Blanchard, a relentless reporter for The New York Times, who avails himself of equally sophisticated technology in his own investigation. The intelligence community and Blanchard ultimately cooperate, culminating in a daring raid on a clandestine laboratory in the most unlikely of locations. But is this really the end of it?

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Mind the Gap

After the sudden loss of his father, Rocco Amiri, a misguided, rebellious young adult, begins spending his nights running through working New York City subway tunnels, climbing bridges, and exploring rooftops with his friends.

As he tries to uncover information about his late father and struggles to make ends meet in the city that never sleeps, Rocco slowly establishes a presence in the “outlaw Instagrammer” community with his best friend, Thalia. However, Rocco must soon decide whether indulging his passion for photography and satisfying his curiosity about his father are worth the risk.

Mind the Gap unmasks the clandestine New York City urban community and tells the story of the fine line between safety and danger—one easily crossed by those who seek dangerous thrills.

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Q&A with Kandi Steiner

Your books have resonated with so many readers, some calling themselves “Whiskey Girls”—do you remember the moment you realized this was going to be your career?

When I released Revelry, which was the book I published about six months after A Love Letter to Whiskey, it shot up the Amazon charts. That was my third Amazon bestseller in a row. That was the first time I felt like this whole writing thing could actually be my career. It gave me the confidence to quit my full time job and pursue writing all in.

You’ve written everything from slow burns to angsty heartbreakers. How do you decide what kind of emotional journey a book will take? Was there a story that pushed you outside your comfort zone?

I am a mood writer as much as I am a mood reader — I just go with whatever my heart is telling me it needs! Sometimes, I'm in the mood for a fun, low stakes sports romance. Other times, I want to explore the human condition and how love can get complicated — fast. 

All of my books have pushed me in different ways, but one that really challenged me emotionally and pushed me to sharpen my writing chops was the What He Doesn't Know/What He Always Knew duet. It was my first time writing a duet and I was also surprising the reader with a third POV and a twist at the end of book one. It was difficult to pull off my vision, but I'm so proud of how it turned out in the end.

You’re known for creating emotionally raw and deeply human characters. Which of your characters has stayed with you the most, and why?

All of my characters take a piece of me when they leave my brain, and they all embed themselves into my heart forever. But one character who really sank his teeth into my soul was Emery from On the Way to You. He was profound and deeply emotional and I enjoyed the challenge he gave me to write him.

A Love Letter to Whiskey has such a passionate and polarizing response from fans—what was it like writing a story with that level of emotional complexity?

This book put me through the wringer just as much as it did my readers. I was consumed with the story, writing day and night and dreaming about it until it was complete. I cried, I squirmed, I felt all the gut-wrenching feelings that readers experienced. I will never forget what it felt like to lose myself in that book, and I firmly believe I wrote it at the perfect time in my life to do it correctly. I couldn't write it again today — even if I tried!

If you had to introduce a reader to your work with just one book, which one would you pick and why?

A Love Letter to Whiskey is always my number one choice, because it's the book that I feel captures the spirit of my writing and shows my style. 

You’ve cultivated a strong reader community. How has that influenced your career?

I am convinced I have the best readers in the world. They are loyal and enthusiastic about what they read, which leads to more readers finding my books. Without the readers who read, love, review, and post about my work, I wouldn't be here. I continually express my gratitude to them and remind them how much I appreciate them spending their hard earned money on my books when I know they have so many to choose from. 

Two of your most iconic novels are coming to bookstores for the very first time this summer, The Wrong Game followed by The Right Player. From what I hear, you have some exciting news coming this Fall. Are you able to share anything with us?

I'm so thrilled about The Wrong Game and The Right Player coming to bookstores this summer. And this fall, A Love Letter to Whiskey will join them — and it will re-publish in a stunning new deluxe edition with sprayed edges and a foiled cover. I can't wait!

If one of your books were turned into a movie or show, who would you dream cast in the lead roles?

It's my ultimate dream to see A Love Letter to Whiskey made into a movie. Since I dream-cased this book in 2016, I always saw Theo James and Zoe Saldaña. However, if it were to become a movie now, I'd want to find new-to-me actors and actresses who are more in the age range of B and Jamie and could play the role of a high school student all the way through an adult in their 30s. 

Do you have any advice for aspiring authors?

My advice to aspiring authors boils down to four things: be unapologetically you, treat writing like a committed relationship, surround yourself with a genuine support tribe, and live a story-worthy life. Write with intent: outline, set measurable goals, and use tools like PaceMaker. Edit ruthlessly. Market yourself authentically — people connect to real you. Budget wisely and expect the long haul. Embrace gratitude, prepare for rough patches with mindset tools, and never stop writing — even bad words count. Ultimately, believe in yourself; your voice and your story are worth showing the world.

Q&A with Simon Tolkien, The Palace At The End Of The Sea

You are the grandson of J.R.R. Tolkien. How did that affect your writing career?

It’s hard to analyze one’s own character and development, but I think that two vital clues in my case are  that I was born the grandson of one of the most famous and well-loved writers of the 20th century and that  I never wrote a word of fiction until I was forty-one, even though I clearly had the capacity to do so. I  have no doubt in my mind that the two are linked. 

I was not a confident person in the first half of my life. I was unsure of my identity and self-conscious in  the way I expressed myself, and this fed into an undermining sense of being overshadowed by my  grandfather and his immense achievements. But like a pressure cooker inside, my desire to write  ultimately forced itself to the surface in the years following the Millenium. I cut back on my work as a  criminal law barrister and began my first novel, and when it was turned down, I simply wrote another.  Suddenly I was determined when before I had hidden away. I developed my talent, learning as I went,  progressing from plot-driven crime thrillers to historical fiction in which the characters became as real to  me as actual friends. 

My sense of being overshadowed by my grandfather’s achievements had fortunately never poisoned me  against The Lord of the Rings. I have always loved Middle-earth and I read the books aloud to both my  children. As a novelist, I have never been tempted to write fantasy, but I was attracted by the realism of my grandfather’s writing and the vitality of his storytelling. Whether hobbit or human, his characters are  flawed, facing hard choices with extraordinary reserves of courage, and these were qualities I looked for  in my own creations. 

My grandfather died when I was fourteen, and with No Man’s Land, I feel that I reached the end of my  journey to find him again and relate to him in a positive way. After fifteen years as a novelist, I had  sufficient confidence in my writing ability to try to bring to life the experience of the British soldiers like  my grandfather, who fought on the Western Front in the First World War, and to begin to understand the  effect that that experience had on his imagination. As I wrote in the dedication, I felt that my book  honored his memory, and I thought that he would have been proud of me. At last, my grandfather and his  achievements had become an inspiration and not a block to my self-expression. I felt I was standing  beside him and not behind him as I turned my thoughts to my next writing chapter: New York in the Great  Depression and the Spanish Civil War.  

How did you approach the research process for the duology - The Palace at the End of the Sea and The Room of Lost Steps?

My first three books were in the crime genre and plotting and writing took much more time than research.  But the reverse has become true since I switched to historical fiction, and research for the duology ended  up taking more than three years! 

I knew that I was taking on a serious challenge with the Spanish Civil War. Spanish politics in the 1930s  were fiendishly complicated and this has meant that there is a huge amount of historical study of the  period but almost no novels. I read these studies because I knew I needed to understand the full picture if I was going to be able to simplify it and make it accessible to my readers, and I care deeply that the history  in my books is accurate. 

I realized that I was going to have to strike a fine balance between painting the relevant historical  background but without ever allowing the novels to become a history lesson, because the provision of  information for its own sake takes the reader out of the fictional world I am trying to create and make real.  It helped that I was writing a coming-of-age story in which the reader could join my hero in his journey  towards understanding Spain. 

I knew that what mattered most, however, was bringing the relevant history to life, and so I read all the  memoirs I could get my hands on, including the accounts written by the survivors of the Lincoln  Battalion, searching for vivid passages that would inspire me. It was one thing to know that 2% of the  population owned half the land of Spain in 1936; it was quite another to see the “bent-over men coming  down the paths from the hills with tied-up bundles of firewood and pine cones on their backs”, looking  like “some strange species of tree creature … not human at all.”  

And the books’ scope and ambition grew organically as I worked, increasing the amount and diversity of  information that I needed. It began as a novel about a War and ended eight years later as a portrait of an  era with settings in New York, England and Spain. 

Why is your novel called The Palace at the End of the Sea?

The palace at the end of the sea is Ellis Island, the famous immigrant inspection and processing station in  New York Harbor. Early in the novel, the hero’s father describes to his son how he and his parents arrived  there from Poland at the end of the 19th century, and how fearful they felt about whether they would be  allowed into America. He tells him that on the ferry afterward, he “looked up at the towers of Manhattan  and the stars blinking,” and it was the happiest moment of his life. 

The boy, Theo, sees the red-brick immigration building and its towers from the boat when he leaves New  York at the end of Part One, and recalls his father’s words, causing him to reflect on how his father  followed his dreams and earned his fortune, only to lose everything in the Great Depression.  

Theo can see through his father’s eyes that Ellis Island must have seemed like a palace after the long hard  voyage across the Atlantic, but its shine seems tarnished to him now by the hardship and misfortune that  he and his family have experienced in the Depression, and the partly ironic title reflects the most  important theme of the duology – the relationship between hope and loss, illusion and disillusion, while  also focusing the reader on the city of New York where Theo grows up and begins his journey. 

Why does The Palace at the End of the Sea begin in New York? What did you learn about the city in the 30s from writing your novel?

All my books before the duology were written from a British perspective, and after finishing No Man’s  Land, I wanted to take on the challenge of making my next hero an American. I soon realized that  nationality wasn’t enough; I was going to need to show him growing up in America and his character  being formed by that experience. I fixed on New York as the setting. It was an easy decision to make  because I had always been fascinated by the city, exploring its streets and avenues until I was footsore on  many previous visits. And the choice also made sense because I knew that my hero was going to fight  with the Lincoln Battalion in the Spanish Civil War, and New York was where so many of the volunteers  came from.

I began to research the city in the Thirties and was soon enthralled by the vivid variety of life that I  encountered. I read about the Jewish immigrants who were worked to the bone in the garment sweatshops  on the Lower East Side, and I was moved by the suffering of the unemployed in the Great Depression,  queuing at the soup kitchens in the Bowery while the glittering skyscrapers multiplied in number above  their heads, indifferent to their plight. Rich and poor, capitalist and communist, men and women of every  color and creed, all caught up together in the melting pot of the great city. 

I listened to the jazz music and watched the movies that New Yorkers listened to ninety years ago, and I  tried to picture the speakeasies and the bath houses, and imagine the gaudy savage joy that they felt when  they escaped for a day to Coney Island or watched Babe Ruth set Yankee Stadium alight. 

All these strands came together in my mind to form the story of my hero’s father who rose from rags to  riches, living the American dream, only to watch all that he had built fall to pieces in the Depression. The  experience of this calamity and its terrible results mold his son’s character, setting him on the paths that  will ultimately lead him to the war in Spain. 

What is your hero, Theo Sterling’s greatest quality?

Courage. An alternative title for The Palace at the End of the Sea was The Anatomy of Courage. Theo  cannot and will not back away from a challenge, even when he knows it’s going to get him into trouble.  He wants to run, not walk. He makes a life for himself and his mother in New York in the most adverse  circumstances but then runs after his future stepfather even though he knows that it will likely mean that  he will have to give that life up. He jeopardizes everything that he has achieved at school in England  when he joins his friend, Esmond, in a violent anti-Fascist demonstration in London, and risks torture and  imprisonment when he participates in an attempted anarchist outrage in the village in Spain to which he  has moved with his mother and stepfather. He constantly gets ahead of himself and lets his heart rule his  head and then has to pay the consequences. But nothing can shake his belief that he can change the world,  and he is forever inspired by a restless imagination, a capacity for intense friendship, and an instinctive  response to beauty. He falls in love with the firebrand anarchist girl, Maria, through the prism of the love  he already feels for rural Spain and continues to believe in the face of all the odds that in the end they can  be together. 

Why did you set part two of The Palace at the End of the Sea in a British Catholic boarding school?

The duology is a coming-of-age story and so I knew that my hero, Theo would have to go to school, and  early on in the planning stage, I decided that it should be a Catholic boarding school called Saint  Gregory’s located in rural England. 

Later, I became nervous about this because I myself went to a similar school, Downside, in the 1970s and  did not do well there, and I was anxious about whether this experience would lead me to become  unconsciously satirical, turning the fictional school into a vehicle for exorcizing or rewriting my own  history, and so losing sight of Theo’s development as a person in an utterly foreign environment that had  nothing in common with all that he had known before in America. 

But perhaps awareness of the pitfalls kept me on the straight and narrow, and I am pleased with the end  result. Like me at the time, Theo is in search of an identity, but unlike me, he ultimately makes a success  of his schooldays, while having formative experiences there that inform his later decisions in life. Thus,  

his struggle against the school bully provides the foundation for his visceral hatred of Fascism, and the  charismatic hold that his communist friend, Esmond, exerts over him, plants the seed of his belief that he  can change the world.

And contrary to what I expected, Theo’s experience of Catholicism at the school turns out to be largely  positive, and the humane influence of his housemaster, Father Laurence, is an antidote not only to  Esmond’s extremism but also to the unquestioning emotion of his mother’s religion that Theo is repelled  by, especially after the family move to Spain. 

I enjoyed writing about school, and so perhaps good fiction is indeed good therapy! 

Why is part 3 of The Palace at the End of the Sea set in Spain?

I knew from the outset that the book would be a coming-of-age story in which Theo, its American hero,  would join the Lincoln Battalion to try and stop the Spanish Fascists from destroying the Republican  government that had been democratically elected to reverse centuries of social and economic injustice. But as I developed the plot, I came to realize that it was not going to be enough for Theo to volunteer to  fight for an idea of justice in the same way that the vast majority of the Lincolns did; he also needed to  have a personal visceral stake in the War that would make it impossible for him to stay home. This meant  that he would first have to live in Spain before the War and fall in love with the country. 

So, I went to the primary sources and read all I could about what rural Spain was like in the mid-1930s: a  world unchanged since mediaeval times that has since vanished almost without trace. I found out how the  people lived and dressed and ate, and I tried to understand the centuries-old customs and beliefs that  governed their lives. Street by street, square by square, I built an Andalusian village and called it Los  Olivos, and in the end, I could see it and smell it and hear it, just like Theo, and experience the terrible  injustice that lay beneath its beautiful surface, destroying it like a canker from within. 

The Palace at the End of the Sea begins with the hero, Theo, meeting his Jewish grandparents for the first time. Why did you include a Jewish dimension in the story?

I have always been fascinated by Jewish culture, and the history of the Holocaust has haunted me ever  since I first heard about it when I was a boy. Later, as a writer of historical fiction set in the first half of  the 20th century, I have been interested in including the Jewish experience in my stories. 

The key to my novel, The King of Diamonds, turns on the true identity of a diamond dealer who may have  helped Jews to find safe passage out of occupied Belgium, or may instead have betrayed them to the  Nazis, in order to steal the jewels that they hid in their clothing when they escaped. This storyline enabled  me to explore the fate of the twenty-five thousand Jews who were deported to Auschwitz from the transit  camp at Mechelen near Antwerp between 1942 and 1944. 

In The Palace at the End of the Sea, I have written about the Jewish immigrants to New York in the early  20th century, who worked in the garment sweatshops of the Lower East Side. The hero’s father has left this  world behind and renounced his Jewish identity by marrying a Catholic, but in the first chapter of the  book, his son, Theo, meets his grandparents for the first time and finds out that he has a Jewish family  history of which he had been completely ignorant up to then. Theo’s father tells his son that he must  forget all that he has seen and heard, but instead Theo hoards his memories like treasure, and years later,  one of his principal reasons for volunteering to fight in the Spanish Civil War is the need he feels to stand  up against Hitler’s persecution of the Jews. In Spain, Theo is finally able to connect with his Jewish  heritage and make that a real part of his identity. 

Why does the Catholic religion play such a significant role in The Palace at the End of the Sea?

The Catholic religion plays a pivotal role in the book, because it is at the root of the broken relationship  between Theo and his mother, Elena. Her faith is emotional, born of a childhood in Mexico which came to  a sudden end when her parents were murdered by socialist government soldiers, forcing her to flee the  country. But her son is a “child of New York City, where everything was man-made, and what you saw  was what you got.” He doubts and questions everything, and feels smothered by his mother’s heartfelt  certainties. 

The tension between them escalates when they move to a village in Andalusia in Part 3. Elena believes  that she has at last returned to her spiritual home, but the Spanish Church has little in common with its  persecuted Mexican counterpart. It is immensely rich and identifies with the ruling class – the great  landowners and the army. The poor feel that it has betrayed them and have turned to the anarchists who preach that religion is a lie used to deceive them and keep them in submission and ignorance. Freedom  will only come “when the last marquis has been strangled with the guts of the last priest.” As the tension  between the haves and the have-nots escalates, Theo and his mother move further apart and their love for  each other cannot bridge the rift that has opened up between them. 

Who was your favorite character to write in The Palace at the End of the Sea?

This is a hard question. Theo is the (flawed) hero of the novel, but I found Esmond de Lisle the most  interesting character to create, partly because he is contradictory and elusive, so that like Theo, I could  never be sure of what he was really thinking. Theo meets Esmond at school in England and quickly falls  under his charismatic spell. Esmond has the best sense of humor of all the characters in the duology, and  he has a genuine affection for Theo, but Theo detects a coldness in him. Esmond is his own person and  doesn’t care what others think of him, but he can’t feel what others feel. His faith in communism is as  strong as Theo’s mother’s is in God, but he expresses it cerebrally instead of emotionally like her. 

I named Esmond after Esmond Romilly, who was Winston Churchill’s nephew and lived an extraordinary  life until his tragic early death at the age of twenty-three. Romilly attended an English boarding school  where he rebelled, publishing a left-wing magazine that achieved a national circulation. At eighteen, he  joined the International Brigades and fought in the successful defense of Madrid against the Fascists, and  then wrote a book, Boadilla vividly describing his experiences. Back in England, he fell in love with  Jessica Mitford, who was one of the famous Mitford sisters. They eloped and spent a year travelling  around America before he joined the Royal Canadian Air Force as a navigator. His airplane was shot  down over the North Sea in 1941 and his body was never recovered. 

Esmond Romilly’s life was an inspiration for some of the events in the duology, and his charisma was a  quality that I have tried to convey in my portrait of Esmond de Lisle, but they are otherwise very different  characters, not least because Esmond Romilly was never prepared to fully embrace communism, which  makes him more akin to Theo than his fictional namesake.  

Thee are not many novels about The Spanish Civil War but it’s a topic you took on. Why did you want to write about it?

The kernel of the idea came to me a long time ago when I read an article about the Abraham Lincoln  Brigade – Americans who volunteered in the last years of the 1930s to fight for the democratically elected  Spanish Republic, that was under attack from the Spanish army supported by Hitler and Mussolini.  Thousands of them from many different walks of life – university graduates and mill hands, teachers and  truck drivers, even a governor’s son – crossed the sea without any previous experience of soldiering and  risked their lives to fight for their ideals; many never came back. I was astonished by their courage and sacrifice, and I thought that their story would make a wonderful subject for a novel. But I had other  projects to fulfill at the tim,e and so I filed the Lincolns away in the lumber room of my memory. 

Years later, I finished my novel, No Man’s Land that takes place between 1910 and 1919, and cast around  for what I should write about next. My previous book, Orders from Berlin, had been set during the  London Blitz of 1940, and I therefore looked to see if I could find an interesting subject that lay between  the two world wars. It didn’t take me long to light on the Spanish Civil War. I remembered the Lincolns  and thought that they could be a fascinating way into the subject, tying in with my wish to try and write  for the first time from an American perspective, having emigrated to the States eight years before. 

Full of enthusiasm, I began to read Hugh Thomas’s magisterial history of the Spanish Civil War, and one  third of the way in, I felt my head spinning as I tried to make sense of the extreme complexity of 1930s  Spanish politics. Drowning in a sea of acronyms, I began to understand why novelists since Hemingway  had steered clear of the war. I thought of giving up but then dismissed the idea. The inaccessibility of the  subject matter actually attracted me. I knew that beneath the surface there was a vital world waiting for  me, peopled by men and women who had sacrificed everything to try and change it for the better, and as I  pushed forward, I became determined that their stories should not be forgotten. It took me more than eight  years to complete the journey, but I am happier than I can say that I stayed the course. 

What is your writing process? What different stages did the duology go through in it’s development?

I try to be methodical. I chose my subject - the Spanish Civil War – and read the standard histories of the  period and then began mapping out the barebones of a plot in my mind. This took many months and was,  I think, the hardest part of the process, because I worried, as I have with previous books, that I wouldn’t  be able to come up with something that I believed could work. Being an author is a lonely business and  the awareness that the book doesn’t exist until you invent it can be very daunting. I spent many days on  the sofa, gazing sightlessly into the middle distance, going up blind alleys. Patience is key and eventually,  many months later, I felt ready to assemble what I had in a synopsis and send it to my publisher for  discussion and approval.  

With the synopsis agreed, I began the research process which involved travelling to relevant locations and reading historical studies and memoirs so as to build up a comprehensive database of relevant information  on my computer. Amazon was an amazing resource because it enabled me to buy out-of-print books, so  that I now possess an almost complete library of the Lincoln volunteers’ accounts of their experiences in  the Civil War. It was hard to know when to stop the research and start writing because there was always  more information available - another treasure trove waiting just around the corner! 

I wrote the books sequentially from beginning to end, expanding out the planning documents and  chronologies as the scope of the story grew. The end seemed very far away in the first year, and I had to  force myself to think of the writing journey as segmented, with each of the six parts of the duology an end  in itself. I imagined myself as a mountaineer climbing between base camps, keeping his eyes averted from  the distant summit. 

But I did finally reach the end and opened a bottle of champagne, before beginning the long process of  revision and editing, which brought its own challenges. I was very lucky to have the help of two  wonderful developmental editors, Beena Kamlani and then David Downing, but I had to discipline myself  to listen to them and evaluate all their suggestions on their merits, overcoming the protectiveness I felt for  my creation. Book as child!

And then one day, eight years after I began, everything was finished and I received the beautiful advance  reader copies from my publishers, held them in my hands, and felt an intense sense of fulfilment and  gratitude. For better or worse, I had created the books from nothing. They were the best I could do; they  had become a vital part of who I am.  

What do you enjoy most about writing?

I have never been any good with my hands, and for many years, I felt frustrated that I had no outlet for my  creativity, so it makes me very happy now that I can create multi-faceted characters who exist  independently of me. I believe in them and can share their hopes and fears, their successes and their  failures. 

Over time, my novels have increased in scope and ambition, and the duology is a portrait of an era set in  three countries over a nine-year period. They require detailed research and preparation, and I enjoy using  the skills I learned as a historian and a lawyer to assemble my diverse material and develop it into an  organic whole. 

Sometimes, when I am writing, I arrive at a point where the narrative seamlessly connects with something  else in the story that I hadn’t seen before. At such times, I feel that an unseen hand is at work, guiding me.  Writing becomes alchemy, at least for a moment.  

What about historical fiction as a genre appeals to you as a writer?

As a child, I loved history. My mother had inherited a huge leather-bound book, Haydn’s Dictionary of  Dates, and I would pass days reading the entries and building pictures in my mind of who the Moghuls  were and what it would have been like to have lived in the Khanate of the Golden Horde. I could see Ivan  the Terrible when I closed my eyes or at least my version of him and imagine Vasco da Gama’s terrified  sailors rounding the Cape of Good Hope as the waves battered their ship. The past was another country, as  alive as mine, and infinitely more wonderful than the sleepy English village where I grew up.  

At school, history was my best subject, and I went on to study it at university. But I was always frustrated  by the way it concentrated on the causes and results of events, avoiding the visceral reality of what had  actually happened in the heat of revolution or battle. I preferred the great 19th century novels that made  history real – the Brontë sisters and Dickens, Dumas and Tolstoy. 

Twenty years later, I gave up being a barrister to become a novelist. I began with what I knew, writing  courtroom dramas, but over time I became confident enough to leave crime behind and write character driven stories set in the first half of the 20th century. Finally, I felt that I had found my calling, bringing  the past to life, so that I could recapture that sense of wonder I had as a child and convey it to my readers. 

What are some recurring themes in your fiction writing?

In my first novel, Final Witness, the teenage hero believes that his father has married a woman who  conspired to murder his mother; in The Inheritance, a young man, Stephen Cade is on trial for the murder  of his father, and faces execution by hanging; in No Man’s Land, Adam Raine loses his parents in  traumatic circumstances and must search for an identity in a hostile and alien environment. And in my two  new novels, Theo Sterling suffers devastating losses and disillusionment while trying to find meaning and  fulfilment in a broken world. 

I think this focus on the struggles of young men without siblings in their teenage years is no accident. I  consider myself now to be a determined person who works hard to accomplish clear-set goals - I couldn’t  have written the novels I have over the last twenty-five years without a strong sense of discipline and  purpose. But, as an only child of divorced parents and later as a teenager, I was very different. I lacked confidence and was often unsuccessful in my endeavors, and I think that my fiction writing has been a  way for me to connect back to my younger experience and explore where a search for identity can take a  person who is deeply unsure of themselves. 

My interest in the vulnerability of the young has also led me to write about the effects of trauma on their  psychology. My heroes suffer from family estrangement and sudden loss of friends and parents, and in my  more recent novels, they fight in terrible conditions on the battlefields of the Western Front and the  Spanish Civil War. Throughout, I have been interested in exploring the positive and negative effects of  these experiences on the minds and souls of those who are still in a formative stage of their development. 

About The Palace at the End of the Sea:

A young man comes of age and crosses continents in search of an identity—and a cause—at the dawn of the Spanish Civil War in a thrilling, timely, and emotional historical saga.

New York City, 1929. Young Theo Sterling’s world begins to unravel as the Great Depression exerts its icy grip. He finds it hard to relate to his parents: His father, a Jewish self-made businessman, refuses to give up on the American dream, and his mother, a refugee from religious persecution in Mexico, holds fast to her Catholic faith. When disaster strikes the family, Theo must learn who he is. A charismatic school friend and a firebrand girl inspire him to believe he can fight Fascism and change the world, but each rebellion comes at a higher price, forcing Theo to question these ideologies too.

From New York’s Lower East Side to an English boarding school to an Andalusian village in the foothills of the Sierra Nevada, Theo’s harrowing journey from boy to man is set against a backdrop of societies torn apart from within, teetering on the edge of a terrible war to which Theo is compulsively drawn like a moth to a flame.

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